Healing and strength through chronic pain and loss

I suffer from severe chronic pain , was diagnosed with bilateral hip impingement, joint arthropathy in the lower back and hip osteoarthritis and suspected fibromyalgia, I also have pain all over my body there’s not a day I don’t wake up in pain . All this started after I was involved in a road traffic accident, my life changed completely. I’m no longer the same person I was , I find myself crying most of the time because I’m in a lot of pain and I’m tired . This is also causing issue in my life in regards to work , relationships and quality life . I find it hard to sleep , I’m just tired and really need God . I feel lost and lonely , and sometimes I feel if I was dead it’s better cause I’m struggling . This has affected me mentally physically and emotionally.its been one infection after the other or the muscle and joints pain.Im just tired of all this